My next blog after this will be about the other two days of babysitting those adorable children but right now I want to wrote about something that's been on my heart for quite sometime.
I was cooking dinner, and tomorrow's lunch, (a 2 hour venture) and, while cooking, my mind tends to just take off on various journeys and sometimes I get to go and sometimes I'm just staring at the food blankly as I am preparing it. Today I got to go on the journey and, after many rabbit trails, and random deer ones, I began to travel on a bit of a wider and far more established path.
When walking on this path the dirt does't get kicked up as it is embedded within the cobblestones that make up the path. (I'm getting somewhere with this I promise) Usually when a path is paved it is because it is trod so often that people took the time to pave it for easier use. So, clearly this is a road I often trod in my thoughts.
What is this road? It's the road of finance. I believe many people have this road, some paved with concrete, some asphalt, others with cobblestones such as myself.
Those that are paved with concrete or asphalt constantly worry about their finances and therefore have chosen the easiest way to make the path traversable because it is one they are constantly going back and forth on.
For those with cobblestone, we worry less and take our time picking our way across the cobblestone. Well, for me at least that's how I feel.
While I was cooking I was thinking about the fundraising letter that I have been working on, which I refer to as my "Introduction Letter". I am currently not meeting my monthly support needs. I am receiving about $600 a month and I need about $1500 and so I have been working on a letter to help me raise more supporters. (On my visa I am not allowed to work and so I live on the support of others)
As I went through my finances of this month and what bit I had left for the next month I realized it wasn't enough. However, I wasn't struck with fear, instead my immediate thought was, "Ok God, I know you got this so, I will do my part and leave the rest up to you."
I have found that, every time I am confronted with my lack of finance, I am filled with this undeniable faith that God will provide. I have seen Him do it again and again and I know He's good for it. He is my father and He wants to take care of me and provide for me that I do not have to worry or fear.
My father (on earth) is a reminder to me of God's faithfulness to us and of His love for us. My dad unconditionally loves his kids, no matter what we've said to him or even whats been done, he love us and wants the best for us. He teaches us and guides us and, even if we reject it he still wants us, he doesn't turn away from us.
This unrelenting love is characteristic of God's and I know that, without a doubt, I do not have to worry for God is with me and is watching over me, just as my dad is. Well, my dad is back in the states but is with me in what he has taught me I now carry (and on the days we skype hehe).
In Matthew chapter 6 verses 25 to 34, it talks about not being anxious and not worrying, for, just as God has dressed the flowers, feeds the birds, and so on, so He will do so for you. So, instead of worrying about these things seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and these things will be added to you.
I feel that my undeniable faith in Him and His provision-whether financial or otherwise-comes from truly understanding and knowing this. I am truly thankful for God's faithfulness and for that of those who stand with me in my calling and support me.
(I have noticed, however, that on the days I write that sort of final line, for whatever reason , it doesn't happen.....mnrrrr. But here's to beating the odds!)
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